We have to be willing to risk failure and heartbreak and a whole mess of possibilities if we want the good things on the other side of fear.
I am terrified each time I have to give myself another shot. Three down and what feels like a million more to go.
I'm trying to not make a fuss because it won't make this go away. I am grateful Spencer is here to stay and help in whatever way he can. What a blessing to have him not give up on me even when I feel so small and wrecked by this process.
Tomorrow is another scan and blood draw. I hope that this one goes smoothly like last time as I will be there again on my own.
