Case of the Munday’s
There is an astute refreshing quality that I feel today. It must have something to do with Spring’s arrival. Even in the gloom of the weather outside and the mess that this morning was for me, I can still feel Spring in the air. The days are brighter and warmer. It’s a very welcome feeling.
Even though I had a mess of a morning due to the much anticipated arrival of beginning my stimulation shots. I woke later than I should have and it threw my entire morning out of order. This on top of injecting myself in the stomach for the first time in my life. This is a very different experience. One that I actually did not enjoy.
I have a new respect for diabetics and other medical diseases that require self-injections.
I think you odd if you enjoy injecting cold medication into your stomach any time of the day. To each his own, I suppose. Odd is the best I can describe the experience. I hear the evening shot is far more painful than the morning short; so I suppose, in a way, the morning dose was ‘enjoyable.’
I had a tiny anxiety attach and was physically shacking by the end and disposal of the needle. I’m not sure if I can continue to do this. I guess I have no other choice as this is my task to get the results I’ve been dreaming of for years.
I didn’t sleep well last night. Even with my sweet cuddly kittens curled up on my body, I had nightmares and woke many times to check the time on the clock. I also chew my cheeks. It’s better than grinding my teeth which I think I also do because my dentist recommended that I get a mouth guard.
Stress of the shot tonight is weighing heavy on my mind and I hope that I can make it through my day at work without thinking too much about what I have to look forward to tonight.
I just need to try and focus on what is coming, hopefully a little babe. That is what I want. Last night when I was holding Kato like an infant I felt just how real I desired to have a baby of my own. I want my sweet baby and so the thought of that is going to have to get me through the next nine days of shots in my stomach and next 60 days of shots in the ass.
