Hump day
Not long ago, I use to make myself sick with anxiety for Wednesday’s arrival. This week, Wednesday couldn’t have come soon enough. Last night I had an emotional fit that just completely overcame me. I made it through and have come out the other side.
When I felt it begin, I shut myself in my room with my kittens and tried to cry as quietly as possible in my hands. Spencer was in the other room and I just didn’t want him to know, even though he could have consoled me. I needed it to be private.
Life isn’t fair. Often I get stuck thinking about my short hand and it makes me upset. I deal with this in many different manners. Sometimes positive and sometimes not. I keep reminding myself that it’s ok to let these feelings come just for the sake of getting them out.
Thank goodness for this day. Half-way through these meds that make me sick. Maybe the drugs to come are going to be worse but I don’t know that yet. I am just thankful that I am on the downhill from these current prescriptions.
I am going to go to HyVee and get myself lunch. Just thinking about the lunch I brought is making my stomach queasy. I can’t help it, I think about certain foods and I’m like awe yes and then I think about others and I’m like barf.
Another day down.
