notes to self

image taken from here. 

Remember to be nice to yourself during this time of change.  Accept that life is full of change around you and that change is always happening to you.  Accept all possible outcomes - head on - the good or bad!  It's the only way to let go of the doom that builds from the anxiety that all too often accompanies life changes.

I love this time of my life.  I also admit that, so far, pregnancy is the hardest part of my life.  (I thought the road to pregnancy was difficult).  I'm sure labor will be harder, which is why I love and included the quote above.  

Here are some images (mostly not pretty) of change occurring.  It's proof of these two little miracles and the fact that I am growing and changing.

Hysterosalpingogram testing in 2011-ish (23 years old and very high on valium)

Varicocele surgery in 2012-ish (What a trooper!)

IVF injection sights. 2015 

A post egg retrieval laparoscopic surgery to stop internal hemorrhaging. 2015 

I had bruising all over my body at this point.  

Additional incision made to insert a drain to remove fluid produced by my ovaries due to complications of hyperstimulation

June 5th Picture of Baby Boy and Baby Girl

One week pregnant and fabulous

Finding out that both embryos took around 7 weeks gestation

9 weeks gestation (beginning of morning sickness phase)

Empathy Belly because he loves me!

Spencer is 40 weeks and I am somewhere in the 20 weeks range

21 week Selfie of a dress that fit perfectly the week before this was taken. Oh well.